So many daddies and so much love

Today my first class was methods of teaching seminary. Funny thing, I really detest waking up to the sound of an alarm. I always have and I fear I always will. Last night I actually prayed to wake up before my alarm went off this morning. Funny thing I remember waking up and being somewhat alarmed thinking I'd overslept my alarm for some reason. Nope just woke up about 5 minutes before it was to go off. The little tender mercies...I was exhausted, but made arrangements to teach early morning seminary so better just cowboy up and get to bed by 10:30 every night or I fret I would be worth much to them. I have found time after time, when I am overtired I have a hard time heeding the prompting of the HG. I took a cat nap, walked up to class-this is the only engineering class I have taken thus far I will miss.

Biomaterials, the professor is one of my favorite here at the U. He is an unsolicited LDS and is a confirmation to me we really are a peculiar people. He uses LDS lingo in his teaching, today it was humble, embark, diligence. He's not nerdy or anything, rather he is absolutely brilliant! He uses other lingo like the dark side, or movie references to try and keep us entertained. He is a really awesome teacher, the content is pretty hefty (I think for everyone, not just pseudo engineers like myself, plus a majority of the students are PhD's) and I am actually interested enough to want to retain it for future reference-who knows what...Either way his jokes are dry and you have to be listening carefully to get them. I never leave without having a chuckle with everyone in class looking at me like I've lost it. He looks and me and smirks, knowing that I gladly receive his intelligent humor. He is very witty and is constantly teaching us tidbits about his work, Pharmacology and Biomedical Engineering. For once I feel as though I am in the presence of greatness and that my tuition is worth more because I am informed more than reading or researching.

Then home I went to eat some soup and work on homework. Then Scott picked me up to go to the temple and I must admit spending the afternoon with him was such a delight, as always. He is so insightful and everything a gentleman should/could be. It help me to place perspective on things and truly assisted me in the remained of my day! To be a woman or not to be?? Is no longer a question. We are after all the crowning creation and need to act accordingly.

God talks through love and inspiration

Why can't we all be like we are fresh off the mission?

I spent time with this newly returned missionary this evening and I loved his valiance, his unfaltering spirit and personal, but not domineering quest for righteousness. It is his kindness, love, and genuine characteristics that make him so handsome. All of my friends swoon over him and I see him as one of the most delightful beings I've made contact. Besides hearing one of my closest friends will be hooking it up with the man she adores, the other highlights of my day were finding out that I may still live with those whom I love, visiting with the cutest elderly ladies and gent this evening and spending time with my ward family. I am sickened by my great disrespect of authority and don't necessarily know where it's been coming from, but I need to abide by rules and embrace the confidence in choosing what is right in all things. I cannot pick or choose or my maker may very well not pick me. Valiance, diligence, and love is the plea I hear from within my troubled soul. Onward Christian soldier...

Elder and Sister Snow Part II

Elder and Sister Snow are my newest favorite general authority. They are just so real and down to earth. People who are the salt of the earth and when I grow up I want to be just like them. Master teachers and amazingly full of love, Christ's love. This has been one of the best weekends I've had in months. Funny though...I didn't go climbing, I didn't study for school, I missed an important family function, yet I felt more enriched and edified than I have spending four hours doing anything else. One of the best parts of feeling so great was everyone that was around me partook of the same goodness, joy, and love. As a Relief Society Presidency this afternoon we spent at least four hours organizing and pondering, evaluating and letting the spirit impress upon our minds great truths. We were all so tired, hungry, and burnt out by 3:30, yet it reminds me of the truth, when you work the hardest the memories somehow create themselves and oh how great will be your joy in the kingdom! I think we left three or four hilarious messages on people's phones. We sang songs, danced in the rain, and mainly filled with giddy delight! For the first time in my life I can honestly say I truly appreciate being a woman. I've always viewed life as living and competing in a "man's world." This is not reality of the divinely appointed plan at all-women are wonderful, we relish the good times, we are mothering, nurturing, kind, loving, meek, delicate spiritual beings that fill the void between our earthly existence and our Heavenly Home. For it is there I was taught to always remember as a daughter of a Living God I can always relish in the faith and reassurance I will indeed know how it all turns out.

I need not fear anything for God will deliver me-personally Sarah Elizabeth Schneider-from anything He seeth fit I need deliverance from.

I realized too this weekend, I have awesome friends. The kind that check up on you, even if they are married and have lives of their own. They love you, their spouses love you, and talking to them fills your life with Joy! The best part of my friends is my younger sister has moved to SLC and I still can't get over the fact she's here. It fills my soul with the most exquisite joy. I have to physically prioritize my time during the week or I could easily spend all my time at her house with her, Allen, Isaac, and newborn Atticus. Years after I pleaded with her to come and join me in Utah I now feel like I am able to spend the time with which I've always looked forward. Last weekend I had Isaac and he was a true delight. Tonight before dinner it was awesome...I had this Thomas the Tank Engine play tattoo and Joyanne extremely questioned if Isaac should be allowed to have it. He didn't even think it was cool! He is the smartest little 3 year old I have ever had the pleasure of spending time around. Nate and Brode were incredible kids, yet I believe due to the love and care devoted to this little guy on a constant basis he will continue to fascinate me and make me addicted to spending time, codling, tickling, chasing, reading, kissing, hugging, wrestling, and sleeping with The Ike. He's become my favorite flavor in life and when he asks if I have to leave, I honestly believe I may feel just as sad about my departure til a day or two later when I need to drop in and spend time with the family. Besides Joyanne cooks like Daddy and feeds me the highest caliber of meals, most importantly baked with love.

It is a dream I've always looked forward to: having family dinners, scripture study, prayer, spending holidays together, family home evenings, movie nights with homemade popcorn, and feel an immense amount of love through being with those you will continue working towards a progressive relationship for all of eternity. Maybe in a few months I will really want my own family, the desire is growing-I am starting to like the idea...now about actually spotting a guy who can be spiritual, family oriented, semi-adventurous,and can make up for all of the things I am not: conservative, anti-impulsive, serious when I can't be, fun loving when I am anal retentive, and pretty much anyone who can counter balance my extremes and shortfalls and I his- that inevitably with some work and diligence we become like Him. May he come and find me home is my humble hope.

Until then I dream of him and endure in patience glorifying His name

Revelation

Elder Snow came and visited us for our stake conference. I was taught from on high this evening...by the Spirit of the Lord and His servants. I realized I need to go back to the standards I learned as a missionary. I will begin using a white board, planning out my days, weeks, months, and coming back to reality of a saint in zion with a level amount of devotion to my calling.

I will not fear, I will listen and obey the promptings he sends to me personally. I have been given so many gifts in this life and if I continue faithful, use them and rely on His timing I will receive all of the righteous desires of my heart in the due time of the Lord.

Goals for March:
Turn in the appeal to Deseret Mutual
Pay off the rest of my computer
Give an Ivory Statue to the Calder's
Begin working on Temple Names
Weekly goals by 3/13
Have seminary observation set up
Have appt with Stake President and Bp set up
Everything ready and up to date to hand off to Nat
Eat with Megs and Matt
One week of no inflammation foods
Daily climbing/exercise
Ready to take Biomaterials exam
Make Dave Breakfast
Read the White Handbook